“Self-hatred, self-loathing, also sometimes auto-phobia refers to an extreme dislike of oneself, or being angry at oneself. The term is also used to designate a dislike or hatred of a group to which one belongs. For instance, “ethnic self-hatred” is the extreme dislike of ones ethnic group.”
My question for wikipedia, is, “why don’t you include the ability to float through life by making people around you uncomfortable with a self-injuring comment”? Mr. Wikipedia, i think that this so called “self- hatred, self- loathing, also sometimes auto-phobia” is what gives me the confidence to leave my house in the morning. This is quite powerful. I know that at least once a day, i will make at least one person feel really uncomfortable, usually by letting out a nervous laugh as to say, “Am i laughing with you right now or should we hide your sharps”? I don’t think i hate myself per se, i mean……i hate myself as much as i hate anything else that shits and sleeps. I also don’t think my self esteem is worse than….i don’t know……Tina Turner hitting a flat note after Ike has been on a crack bender with a crotchless panty wearing-toothless-hairy-prostitute.
I think we need to welcome self-loathing into our lives….because frankly- humans are fucking disgusting. You have no real reason not to feel bad about yourself. The Hershey marks in your underpants, the way you don’t wash your hands in a public restroom, the “five second rule” you rationalize in your mind as being applicable on the dirty floor of the Q train, the way you trim your gnarly fucking toenails on a park bench and the yeast infection you have that you overlook when trying on that swimsuit in a kohls dressing room. Congratulations on adding to the collapse of humanity.